Tuesday, May 20, 2008
such a boring day.i am now in school slacking on a laptop.
nothing to do.
heck. i woke up tired and was nearly late for school. ( i took a taxi)
something just does not feel right.
i hate being paranoid la.
well, some things just tend to bother me.
had one hell of a WEEKEND
it was good. haha. plus i got my handphone back.
haha. well, it's the last week of school!
yay?
haha yes, the question mark.
happy or sad?
i feel as if there is nothing worth looking forward to during the holidays.
camps? maybe.
more "vacation" school is inevitable.
so i suppose my JUNE schedule will be damn packed.
just great. packed. perhaps in a bad way.
no rest.
YESTERDAY
was ultimate boredom.
imagine serving tennis balls for 3 hours.
well, lol. the whole world seemed busy yesterday.
there were people who were out dating.
one bunch here and there, at cinemas and fast food joints.
some people were enjoying the sun in East Coast.
yea. lol. actually it felt great to be alone.
like perfect solitude.
tranquility. sounds so i-dunno-what. intellectual?
and my wallet is almost empty now.
tennis racket bought.
6 taxi rides yesterday.
and i didn't even bother to take a bus yesterday.
not once.
heck. i think i better start saving up.
i have been spending too much these days.
oh yea. psp ain't boyfriend stealers.
they steal the boyfriends' attention.
AFTER SCHOOL
ok this is where i continue from where i left.
i reached home.
yea, and i am sick of this place.
seriously, i can go on and on.
but its not gonna solve anything
neither do i feel obliged to do anything
neither do i feel obliged to do anything
i am so tired already.
shall sleep early tonight.
i can feel the weariness getting to me.
tired physically and mentally.
and when it happens, you can feel everything in life.
every single bit of worry, relief, sadness, happiness.
its that simple.
well, not quite.
heck. sometimes when i continue
such worthless words can just fill up one whole page.
paranoid. paranoid.
what on earth am i doing?
anxieties, fears and worries.
thats so like in the eucharistic prayer during mass.
still, what's these insecurities i am feeling.
paranoid. its all in my mind.
get out please.
mental torture ain't good.
busy week ahead i guess.
report books on friday. haha
and i don't know how to end this post anymore.
at a loss of words. wait till i think of something.
{thats life}