It has been quite sometime since i have been online.. 3 days..funny..nothing around other's seemed to have changed. mine changed drastically.. i dunno why too.. sometimes i feel pushing yourself to the limits may not be a bad thing. exceeding and setting new limits seem to be better.. things are never gonna be the same.. i realised many things during this holy week.. probably it brought me back closer to god and the church.. it calmed me. it made me realise many things.. and it made me think deep.. this has perhaps brought about many realisations that hurt deep, that hurt alot. but some made me proud and happy.. there are some things i have to let go off.. and realising i have to do so hasn't been good.. haha..looking at the bigger picture, i am glad things turned out this way.. i never wanted to suffered since young.. and i dun wanna suffer ever. since some stuffs happened before i know very well i shouldnt stay. things have been tough,i am taking it cool.. though people fail to realise how much one can take. i need a good old rest..lots of sleep..and more thinking.. before i screw up big time..
lack of sleep is a really big problem. i have been suffering long nights and working all day doesn't do me any good. somemore having to wake up for some stupid flag day is just not great. haha..at least easter is here..it probably slackens the workload of my shoulders.. this past few days i have spent more then 12 hours in church all the time.. with ytd's timing of 14 being the longest.. i really am tired..yet happy.. the joy experienced is indescribable... i long to fufil my work and finally enjoy myself.. many things have been holding me back,hah! oh..say mummy dee at mass ytd.. not bad..she came back to SFA.. and now..i am glad i made it through..its easter vigil not the last mass.but the most important.. thank god..
haha.. i know.. and i understand.. haha.. time will pass very fast.. as they say.. in the blink of an eye.. haha.. i am happy.. and i ought to.. goodbye.
i am glad i realised. i am happy. let it stay this way. haha..
{thats life}
4:30 PM
TERRENCE-
Terrence Michael Giam, swingin 16!
♥R
Christian - Catholic!
To a special person ;
I'll be there to hold you through